HALCYON on:Wednesday, November 11, 2009,5:26 AM
MUAHAHAHAHA!
i'm leaving singapore tomorrow night @ 10.30pm. :D pics will be uploaded when i'm back and probably with my new skin. :) it's done. just need to add a few more posts and pics and i'm done. :) well, gonna pack alr. cya
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the CUTE one,
小可爱.
HALCYON on:Wednesday, November 4, 2009,10:34 PM
arggggggg..........i'm feeling soooo dam troubled now...... i don't know how to say. whenever i thought of him, it's no longer that sweet feeling now, it's like......anger? but why?why is it soo that i hate him when i don't even really know him. just who is he to me that i can be angry with him? i think he is angry with me right now also. but yesterday went jurong point, saw someone who look soo much like him.(but not sure if it's him or not....) i suddenly had this butterflies in the stomach. when that guy look at my direction, i was like too shy to look at him and then look away.(i'm at a every far distance....) why? just what am i thinking? angry? upset? inlove? crushing? idk idk idk! this is soooo complicated! aw man! and i think i just woke up from the dream. i somehow understand that we are impossible. i really don't know what to do? just how am i suppose to face him?! and how's my decision to the C.O performance? i still couldn't make up my decision......
There's soo much going in my head, my mind is in a whirl now.
right now, i really need someone to be by my side.
to lead me on, to the place where i wanted to go, where i really belong..............
everyone needs to be loved, concern, cared. we wished we meant something in someone's heart.
where we are not just somebody, but someone that really matters to the person.
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小可爱.
HALCYON on:Tuesday, November 3, 2009,6:35 AM
today was boring in the morning. i know, i am suppose to be at AMK hub but it was canceled.(did i say b4?) anw, that's not the main point. i just had a totally sarcastic night you see.
it started from the tuition. i was pretty happy when i was there(at first) and when reaching the end, it started to get worse. he seems to be displeased with me. idk, i just think so. like he is running out of patience with me and i realise that all his smile is like sooo fake at that moment, like as if he didn't mean it. i ask myself :"is he displease? he hate me? oh he hate me!" and then the atmosphere got tense. oh god. i really don't know what to do lah. at that moment i totally feel like crying for god's sake. but the thought of crying in front of him, all the tears went back down. then finally it's the end of the lesson(he realeased me early), i kinda felt so relief.(it's the first time so far) idk why. and then it seems that i woke up at that moment. i started to think and feel that we are impossible. "6 years apart? no way right? it's impossible. also, even if i like him, he might not like me. i suck to the core, why will he like me? right? it's impossible." and i told myself that i will try to forget him till the next lesson, if he did perform well, i might reconsider not forgetting him and also see if i still have that chemistry for him. i know i won't be happy for the next week but i know this is the only way to stop myself from guessing what he is thinking.
then, i went to tok about c.o stuff to my dad. honestly, i don't want to go for the November performance. it's like sooo pathetic. why do this? and i feel like changing CCA. but there's a lot disadvantages to it. i don't know. i feel soo trap now. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. please, help. what should i do?
"every time i look at you, i try with all my might to guess what you were thinking at that moment. do you like me? or do you hate me? am i acting like an idoit in front of you?
every time. this always happens when i fall inlove.(or maybe it's just an infatuation) i'm soo tired of trying to guess now, to guess every time, analyse it- positive and negative. spending all my time thinking of you. thinking if we were possible, thinking if you would like me, thinking if........ i'm sooo tired now, but i totally lack the courage of asking you if you feel the same way for me too, so i decided to give up.(again) yes, again. why must i also give uP? easy, cos i lack the courage. huh, love is soooo difficult to cope.(or maybe i'm just toooo immature to handle it?) you know what, all i can say now is I DON'T KNOW. i'm sooo confused and i really need someone to be there for me. but who? i really don't know......." how i i wish he is mine......
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the CUTE one,
小可爱.
HALCYON on:Monday, November 2, 2009,7:08 PM
today is Tuesday, mom and dad went out to work, I'm alone at home. was going to amk hub but was canceled in the end. now i am left alone at home with nothing to do and now i am eating cup noodles for breakfast. pathetic. gonna rot at home today again. sianz. forget it then........
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小可爱.
HALCYON on:Sunday, November 1, 2009,9:54 PM
ever since i knew you, i knew i had fell for you. but all along, i knew we were impossible, so i told myself that i should forget you. At that time, i thought i can do it- Just forget about you, my feelings for you, like what i had done to the ones previously. But till today, you face just couldn't go away in my mind, no matter how hard i try not to think of you. I thought i could just forget you, maybe you are just the one......... do you know that i like you?
Holiday had just started, of course, with tons and tons of homework, but still, i didn't even wanted to bother. but before holiday, i found a few new friends, Faith and Melissa. In fact, Melissa is my new friend and i knew Faith all along, it's just that we weren't so close. Both of them speak dam good english, so it's my honor being with them becos i can learn and improve my english. Also, they are really nice people. =) spent my weekend at grandmother's house. it's been a long time i've stayed at their house. i guess they must have missed me alot. well, today got C.O till 6p.m. sianz. anw, told you before i am swoon over two handsome guys? yea? now i don't know who to choose. both of them is soooo handsome! <333333333 one is 2 years older other one is more than 5 years. DROOL! wahaha! I LOVE THEM!!! :P
I'm such a flirt.....
anw, tomorrow going out to AMK hub to shop for C.O costume. then will head straight to tuition! :P cya.
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小可爱.
HALCYON on:Tuesday, October 27, 2009,11:50 PM
haha, i know i havn't been posting lately. but i will once i get my skin done. i will make up the posts. okay? :)
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the CUTE one,
小可爱.
HALCYON on:Tuesday, October 20, 2009,12:06 AM
today is not really my day.......
bad things happened one after another.
hope tonight won't be too bad.
tooo depressed to say anything
so i guess this would be all.
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the CUTE one,
小可爱.
HALCYON on:Thursday, October 15, 2009,10:59 PM
YEY!!!
YEEEEPPIEEE!!!
muahahahaha!!!
finally i have got "dates"!! hahaha! well, but it's not today. but soorrry to say, i am fully booked from tomorrow onwards till mon!! hahaha!!!
schedule for my "dates"
SATURDAY
- piano class
- going to northpoint wif ANNA<3.kinda>after that will go and visit grandma and eat dinner there. maybe will play basketball and train the method mdm lum taught me.
SUNDAY
- going to woodlands swimming complex wif ROSA DARLING to swim and work out. (kinda first time going GYM!!! :D )
- going to visit grandma again. trying to make it up to her cos exam period nvr visit her.
MONDAY
- going to jurong point wif ROSA DARLING to have FUN! let's get HIGH!!
- den go home?????
hope that this time will take lots of pics. as for today, i will get myself ready and be prepared to go out wif my darlings!! muahahahaha!! :)
How?
- cut nails
- file nails *SHINY*
- put nail polish(pink or purple?)
- plan what to wear for the days
WOW! it's seems alot of work! got to go before it's not done! cya!
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the CUTE one,
小可爱.
HALCYON on:Wednesday, October 14, 2009,9:52 PM
OMG!
OMG!
OMG!
CAN SOMEONE JUST ASK ME OUT?!
I AM DECOMPOSING AT HOME ALR.
WHO DA HELL CAN GO SHOP WIF ME?!
ARRRRGGGGGG.....
BOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!
huh~ this is stupid man!
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the CUTE one,
小可爱.
HALCYON on:Tuesday, October 13, 2009,1:47 AM
today HE was okay. ( :l )
was doing art prep work all morning till now. (zzzzzzzzzz.....)
ltr going for MATH tuition. ( :D )
hahaha.....okokok. i'll cut it out.
well, not very confidence in tomorrow's art.
hope everything will be fine and smooth.
Quiz time again!!
what is your love fortune?(tarot reading)
three of cups
You're interested in three potential lovers or there are three interested in you, but only one will be receptive to your advances, and only one that pursues you will be genuine.There is a lack of true romance in your life right now and will remain so until you begin to appreciate yourself more - only then can someone else do the same.
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Are you a show off?-- you are not a show off
You're happy with who you are, and you don't need other people's affirmations to prove it.You don't really like excess attention, and you prefer to blend in with the crowd.
You are modest and humble. You don't make a big fuss out of your accomplishments.You prefer to fly under the radar. The people who matter most will like you no matter what.
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Are you extrovert of an introvert?-- You Are 20% Extrovert, 80% Introvert
You are quite reserved.You aren't afraid of social situations...But you very much prefer to go it alone.And why not? You're your own best friend!
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How boyish of girlish u are?--You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish
Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.
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Are you Flirtatious, fearless,factual of friendly? -- You are friendly
You are relaxed, calm, and quite happy. You're content to go with the flow and make the best of every situation.You are very casual and nonchalant. You are open to meeting new people and experiencing many different aspects of life.
You always seem to be enjoying yourself, as long as everyone else as at peace. Drama and chaos paralyze you.You have very few attachments or strong opinions. Some people worry about how indifferent you seem.
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What's your true body type?--You are an Ectomorph
You are thin and lean. You don't put on weight easily.Ectomorphs are known for being private, introverted, and brilliant.
It's likely that you are introspective, philosophical, and even artistic.Other people tend to make you a bit tense, but being alone is both inspiring and comforting.
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What do your hands say about you?-- Your hands say that you are logical
You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.
Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you.
Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.
Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.
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Are you approachable?--you are very approachable
You can talk to anyone, and it shows. People are eager to start conversations with you.You are open and friendly. You are willing to connect with almost anyone.
While it's great to be approachable, there is such a thing as too approachable.Eventually someone will try to take advantage of you. Don't be afraid to say no or end an awkward conversation.
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whats your dating type?--your love type: INFP/INFJ
INFP:The Idealist
In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.
Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.
Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ
INFJ: The Protector
In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls.
Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in.However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself.
Best matches: ENTP and ENFP
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The beach test--You are Quietly pasionate
You are a loner, and you're fine with that. You find the most fulfillment in solitude. And you never feel more lonely than when you're in a crowd.You fall in love with ease and confidence. Even if you've had bad experiences in the past, each new love is a reason to start completely over.You are a deep and contemplative person. You are as passionate as everyone else, but your passion is not always apparent.Your sense of humor is goofy and silly. You are good at making almost anyone laugh.
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The shape test--you are skilled
You are balanced and competent. You value harmony.Other people see you as dreamy, shy, and even a bit mysterious.Your ideal romantic relationship is peaceful, romantic, and private.You do best in tasks that require you to be flexible, creative, and playful.
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